Tick Tock. Tick Tock.

A couple years back, I met a girl who claimed she had a biological time clock. It seems that her internal body clock was somehow synchronized with the time flow around her. I was fascinated by this. I couldn't understand how someone was able to wake up without an alarm clock or plan to leave the house at 4:45 and then happen to look up at the time just as the clock reached a quarter to five. It just didn't make sense to me. I thought maybe this was a talent that one is born with, one which I would be unable to learn. Since then I have learned that there are ways to develop this ability. There are books that allegedly teach one how to synchronize his/her internal body clock. And I am sure there are gurus somewhere on earth who espouse the benefits of becoming synchronized, how one can become enlightened through it. But that is not how it reentered my life. Instead, it appears that it surreptitiously infiltrated my sleep cycle. Somehow I have developed a knack for an internal alarm clock. No, it is not perfect. It can be off by plus or minus ten minutes. And if I am really exhausted it may fail to wake me at all. But it is there. A number of times I forgot to set my alarm clock or set it wrong and woke up anyway. The weird thing is, it isn't like I worked on it at all or decided, “Gee, this is something that I really need.” In fact I had totally forgotten that it existed. And still it decided to waltz its way into my life. I'm not complaining. I actually think it is kinda cool. I can't wait to hone it more. The only problem is, since I never actively developed it, I don't know how to sharpen it. But I'm sure something will come to me...Speaking of the cycles of sleep and waking, another weird thing has happened to me. For some reason, every day at about 6 AM, I wake up. I can't think of a reason why, it just happens. I usually just roll over and go back to sleep since I am pretty sure that G-d never intended for anyone to be up that early in the morning. If you have to, you wake up. But never by choice. At the beginning I thought that maybe I was being roused at that early hour because I had had enough sleep already. However, that is not the case. I don't go to sleep at the same time every night. Some nights I turn in when it is distinctly morning already. So it doesn't make sense that I am waking up then because I am fully refreshed. There has to be some other reason, some other purpose. Every day I awake at that time, every day at six six six. Maybe I am being sent a message... Maybe I am the antichrist...